An ode to a lost friendship

There's one person that i've hurt oh so much
Must've thought I'm such a big bad girl.
Well so in fact I am.
Thru many trials and problems,
Was there to give me strength,
to cheer me up in the midst of gloom.
Assurance that i'm the sweetest person,
even when i'm in the most rebellious mood.

But what did i give in return?
A harsh meanness was what i've shown.
Heart I've broken, and repeatedly still.
And i now wonder how he could withstand it all.
Distance and space he respectfully gave,
To an undeserving, mean little child.

Just when circumstances turned a little rough,
And this little menace had just enough.
Of all the going ons, the voices and the guilt,
She has decided once for all to end the tale.
Wished for escape and made wrong turns,
on the narrow path that she was once treading upon.

Now alas what has happened?
Love she cannot freely give,
A cold shoulder to his warm embrace.
To the One above she entrusts all things,
Since a mess she created, she cannot mend.

And now after time has pass,
healed the scars,
and hopefully,
for friendship to bloom.