Heartbroken

This day is a very sad day for me. Charlie, our family joy, died today, March 30, 2006. He was a great dog, always has been faithful and never barked like other stray dogs would. When he first came in, he was a very fiesty dog, running to and fro, not yet used to the surroundings. Dad warned me on his nature calls so i personally trained him, waking up 5am to see to it that he gets used to it. The rest was not that hard, because he wasn't a hard dog to train. Another interesting factor is that he eats whatever is given to him. Unlike his predecssor that is very choosy and would even eat a single bite, he eats all things!! From pandesal to steaks! He'd always wait on us. He'll meet us when we get home, even upto his last day, (last night), he never fails to do so, even if no one would teach that to him. My dad would use to go down with him and take him to the park. But because of a bad prioro experience, (our previous dog was hit by an obnoxious car who didn't even stop to think), he lessened and even stopped going down with him. But even though that was the only happy days of charlie, he didn't stop meeting us at the doorway, and trying to lick our feet even if we shooed him away. Then he would wait on us when we eat. Because that's the only time that we'd really take him into consideration. In his younger years, he would climb up to us and tell us to give him food. Even scraps were fine with him! ^^ And during night time, he'd choose which door to sleep on because that's where the aircon would usually flow. With his built and millions of hair, i'd suppose that's the only burden of our dog, given our tropical weather. But recently, he's been sleeping on my door more often and i could say i'm priviledged to have that, though i was always busy with my own schedules and didn't give a thought of cuddling him and patting him.. =( The best that i did was to give him his lunch meals, mashing all kinds of stuffs, from his favorite chicken, and veggies, and rice. But even i did that grudgingly.. I didn't deserve to have a great dog, but that's what Charlie is: a GREAT DOG. No one could ask for more.


Unfortunately, a good thing overdone would usually have drastic result. My mom love to overfeed him. Thus from a usual 7lbs an average pom should have, he weighed a good 13+ lbs! That may have led to his developing of asthma and frequent hyperventillation. Last night was the worse one and we thought it was his usual routine. This morning we found him peacefully sleeping in front of the ref (i think he didn't want to burden anyone of us to think of him anymore) =( may his soul rest in peace... The best line i could remember right now is what my dad use to say: "Cutie is a good good boy called cutie boy" ^^;

How do i feel today?

Just posted this in the forum and i think i shall share it here also..

What i feel today?? simple.. grateful....

i just met my bro's friend and i found out how aspiring doctors work out initially.. they have to work in a hospital for 30 hours.. ruin their body clock, get home 6pm the next day spend 12 hours at home and then go back to work again.. and they can't sleep during operating hours eventhough their eyes are so droopy... i can't even find the life or zest of doing that profession... but we can't live without doctors can we.. and i guess being one should be a passion.. or else you'll feel that its just gonna be a burden for life...

and to think that i've complained so much before about my profession.. well... its works fine for me and if my friend's venture works out.. (well.. she plans on being a activity planner i.e. wedding planner or some sort) that i feel is exciting.. ^^

by the way.. congrats to that same friend mentioned above for winning back to back 2Bu!'s valentine writing!! i know you had it in ya!! hehe! keep it up sis!! ^^ (that may be your other fork in ur career!!) hihihi!!

new but old thing on LovE

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith, goodness, and to goodness, knowledge, and to knowledge, self control, and to self control, perseverance, and to perseverance, godliness, and to godliness, brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness, love. 2 Peter 5-7

I think i had found all the necessary ingredients to our ever famous topic: Love. The month of love has just passed, and forums, newspapers, radios, infomercials were all bashed with huggings, kisses, boyfriends, kilig moments, and all the stuffs. Heck i've even used the ever famous 1Cor13 to define it in one thread. But during the Sunday sermon, this verse just hit me because it was included as part of our reading before the sermon proper. At first glance, you might think that all it talks about is how to build ur faith. But if you read it backwards, it also can be used to define love. The ingredients of love. True love as to speak. In our world today, we are constantly blundered by what model couples do to call it truly "in-love". Sweet nothings, special moments together, sweet surprises... All of these leave us girls gushing on what our ideal "love" should be. Otherwise, we don't want to be called plain jane or be left out from our ka-berks. Thus we try to follow our "heart" and maybe sacrifice what we presently believe in or how we are brought up in order to save the relationship or to add spice to the relationship. But are these really really necessary???

The really important stuffs, those that really matters, are not of the heart. Ting a ding!! Some may already roll their eyes.. Well, i guess i believe in the conventional, traditional ways. But that's for me now.. First and foremost, is faith. That will be the common denominator between the two. Faith in God, and not love. Love for God must be first and foremost in the lives of every couple. Without their love for God, all is meaningless. Second comes goodness. Of course that is already a given. Third is knowledge. The saying goes: "One should keep both eyes open before marriage and one eye shut after marriage" works explains clearly its importance. The getting to know stage is as important as anything coz it will determine if you'll still want to pursue the relationship or back off as early as possible, without the buildup of feelings. But of course, room for mystery is also a given. Too much of a something is bad of course. What ought to be told, should be told, but for those that need time, then time should be given. Fourth, self control, perseverance, and brotherly kindness goes hand in hand. In our sex hungry era, most relationships today are already left numb because they have too much experience in this subject. My own thinking is: if you really love the person, love him/her as you would your own brother or sister. Do you want you brother/sister to be defiled? But how would you add zest to your life? I have learned that you could add enjoyment to your day by helping other people. Seeing other people happy are more fulfilling than concentrating on what you'll get this valentines day.

Well these are just thoughts randomly passing my head. Have a nice day everyone. ^^